Coming Back to Yoga Full Circle By Shauna Zapp

Author: myaizzolena / Date: 14-05-2015 /

            We all go through several journeys in our lives. These experiences shape who we are and what we become. Along my journey, I became a mother and it has been a wonderful adventure. Even a year after giving birth, when looking in the mirror or getting on my mat... I am still adjusting to the physical changes within myself.

            As a yogi before my baby, I had a very skillful practice. However, I felt I had reached a plateau and was not growing and learning as a student. I was hungry for more. But, my focus turned to starting a family with my husband. I was forced to step back and slow down significantly during my pregnancy. I had to turn off my ego and turn to mindfulness. When it came to teaching, demonstrating poses became difficult. So, I began connecting to the building blocks of yoga and teaching others to reconnect with the basic postures.

            After I delivered my baby, both aspects of my practice came to a halt until nine months postpartum. Around then, I felt the urge to practice and teach again. But things about me had changed. None of my yoga tops fit me anymore, I had a weak core, hardly any upper body strength, and I could not even attempt some postures from my previous practice. At first it was difficult to face. When I finally accepted my new body, my practice came back full circle... I became a beginner yogi again, forcing my ego to rest. Not only that, but I had to follow my own advice on reconnecting with the basic poses. This was very humbling for me and was exactly what I needed to find a new direction for my practice. Now, I am on the path of growth and learning once more.

            As yogis we are all students to our practice. We are constantly changing and change can remind us to listen to what our bodies need rather than what the ego wants. This allows us to tap into one of the five observances of The Eight Limbed Path, Santosha. Santosha means contentment and to be “totally satisfied, not desiring anything other than the fundamental". The fundamental postures are the roots to our practice and must not be forgotten along the way. The ego wants us to forget them and master newer or more difficult poses. But, we must try not to get lost and be satisfied with where our practice lies in the present moment.